I've been watching little legs in motion a lot lately.
Up and down, side to side, front to back.
I have sat through countless physical therapy sessions holding back tears as I watch my son struggle to do what comes so easily and naturally to most children. His little legs wobble, his knees sometimes buckle, and I have to sit by and watch him learn and grow and get better at this thing called walking.
And yet isn't that how we all start out? We all wobble a little under the newness of something.
A new job, being a parent for the first time, living on our own, moving to a new place, learning a new way of life.
We all start out with shaky legs.
My legs were pretty shaky when I started out on this journey of Down Syndrome. Most days found me in tears, afraid of the future and paralyzed by my feelings of inadequacy. While I still cry sometimes and feel inadequate most days, I'm learning how to walk through this and my legs are getting stronger.
"The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:28-31
God is giving me strength for the task of mothering my son. HE doesn't have shaky legs. HE is the all-powerful God on whom I wait, confident that He will renew and strengthen me.
Mason's legs are getting stronger. He can push his little cart around the house now like it's nobody's business. The other night we took him to the park and he walked for about 1/4 mile pushing that little thing, plopping down to wave at passersby, then pulling himself right back up. He was definitely exhausted by the end of our walk and pretty ravenous at dinner, but he did it. He's making progress. He's pushing forward though he grows weary and he's going to walk on his own one day.
When I feel weak and unsteady, I want to push forward with the same determination of my son, trusting in the strength of God, confident in His ability to enable and strengthen me.
Are you struggling with shaky legs? Wait on the Lord. He will renew your strength.